Saturday, April 7, 2018
inflated grotesque rendering of a wife
taut round blunted
spent potential and the bent grass where some other version of her slept before the trap snapped
there’s not much to prune, subdue
stillness comes
naturally
how much time?
wait while I think about it?
don’t ask me that, don’t watch me while I—
I think—
I want—
Monday, September 25, 2017
Wednesday, August 2, 2017
I had a dream about you this morning
we were in your car, something that only happened about once in person but that I remember the feeling of vividly
(this happens often in my dreams-- me, the Passenger)
we were parked somewhere sort of green
I was sitting in the back, watching the nape of your neck in the driver's seat and catching glimpses of your expression from the rearview mirror
this was the finished draft of a daydream
Can You Please, you said, and I did
and it was so nice to be outside of my life
with you
we were out all night talking
and I woke up, in the dream,
and I touched your back to wake you up
the morning meant the game was over and there'd be
Questions
a sad, tired smile
"anytime you want to--"
you need a haircut
am I happy?
Sunday, March 5, 2017
the same sins
it’s a poisonous thing to pine for
me, the apple in everyone’s eyes
the root being I only feel Worthwhile
when you’re pulling me up from the soil
me, the apple in everyone’s eyes
the root being I only feel Worthwhile
when you’re pulling me up from the soil
and only me
everyone, only me
take the torch back, what am I doing here
I can see fine in the dark
I can see fine in the dark
Saturday, October 22, 2016
amelia
I should have heard you when you warned me I was courting damnation
a demon with my brand of cigarette
I couldn't trust you because I watched you long for him, too
assumed you were caught still
and if only you'd have kissed me when I wanted you to, maybe I'd've listened
many years too late I'm looking at you, for you
hoping you hear me & maybe next time
try harder to save yourself, and
me
Saturday, February 22, 2014
you & your mother were asleep in the trailer park
sometimes I need to sit back and take in another person's devastation
to visit the bittersweet but only in transit
placing the ambient darkness of Me into a bag that I can
hold rolled in my hand until the album scratches, over.
Here is a list of people I have thought I was [you will find my name absent]:
Anne Frank
Ava Gardner
Erwin Schrodinger
Eurydice
Franny
Jesus Christ
Kurt Cobain
Marilyn Monroe
Orion Escher Redinger, unfortunately lost to chance
my father
the drugs told me I was literally all of them
Truth showed me they are everyone and so am I
but who is she more than me?
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
this is a poem about Daniel
(and every boy I've ever loved)
if you are sweet to an artist
if you are sweet to an artist
if you are
good to Him, if you
cast light on
the parts of him He is
disinclined
to see
you will find
yourself in his art,
the Experience
Manifest.
if you
torment
and occupy
him,
if he fights
the idea of you while she is close
but sings for
you
six shots out
the door
you will find
yourself in his body
of work.
if you kiss
an artist
and he looks beyond
you,
somehow cannot
marvel your body
(would that
he could, only--)
He is
unaffected & you can taste it.
you can find no part of yourself
in what he
does.
but She is there,
look